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this week started off bland. maybe its because many people i know are away on their respective agenda or maybe its just because of the stupid rain.

or maybe its because i have no money and no idea as to what to buy as presents for people.

so sickening. its alot of other things too, some of which i dont really wanna care about.

like the fact that growing up the hard way its taking up alot of my youth or the fact that recovery is indeed an extremely long process. then again, it may be because the environment that i once felt sure in isnt as stable as it used to be anymore.

its just a bloody gut feeling though.

you know how you watch in the telly or read from the books about people not being able to get out of their sorrows not because no one is opening up their hearts to them but because these sad and depressed persons are all just too preoccupied with their own misery to witness the amount of love that they were engulfed in?

that is so true man. its all about the security blanket.

sometimes i feel like linus.

and i know it makes no sense. maybe its just the 2am talk. or maybe its due to overdosage of sims2.

then again, i think its the chill.